If I could verbalise what I am feeling, if I could show you the pain that was antagonizing me, if I could echo my train of thoughts for you to understand me.

Trust me, I would.

Haven’t blogged in a long while. Can’t sleep now, so why not?

Was looking through facebook and thinking about how fragile friendships, relationships, bonds and memories are. Living in the moment, is such a critical principle in my life. All those things you think are important now won’t be anymore. People who’ve played such a major role in my daily life, have completely no purpose in mine now. 

We’d all move on eventually. If there’s anything I’ve taken away from all my encounters –– it is to never regret. I’ve always wondered of the what ifs and had beens but I don’t regret them anymore. I think everything happens because it should and will eventually. It is only a matter of time. And time is everything. I’ve lived the way I wanted to and let it be for the past few years. Every bit of it was a stage for me to grow and learn. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

This year’s been the roughest. Where real, adult problems actually seep in. I used to complain about school, friends, my feelings, and maybe fret about what to wear or how much weight I’ve gained. Now?

Early this year saw me almost losing my Dad, I may lose my only grandmother, I’m struggling with worklife and my goals, and I am giving up alot of my friends. It has been a test of discipline and determination. I’ve met so many people that can offer me the endless opportunities to get me to where I want to be. I’ve been in so many situations I’ve never wanted to be in. I should be onto something soon. Let’s hope the next half of this year will be kinder, to everyone. 

I’m okay. I’m happier than I was before. 

All places are temporary places

No new clothes this week = grumpy as fuck